Long story short, what was meant to be a two week break to rest up an injured elbow has turned into a two month break. And counting. Here's been my thought process so far over this break, at least to the best I can recall it.
Day 0: Wow, I feel like my elbow should hurt more than it does, but I'm pretty sure I'll be good for class tomorrow.
Day 1: Holy crap I can barely move my arm. I should probably give it a few days rest before going back to jiu jitsu.
Day 4: Well I've got like 80% range of motion back, but it still hurts a good bit when fully extended, maybe I'll need more than a few days. I'll wait until after Christmas to go back. But I won't wait until after New Years to go back; I know that trap.
Day 14: Well damn, it's almost New Years and even though I feel I have full use of my arm, it still feels a little sore when I wake up in the morning. So I may as well wait until after New Years. So much as I get a couple classes in before tournament training starts I should be good for the tournament training.
Day 21: Tournament training starts in just a few days and I've yet to be back on the mats. It's going to suck, but I'm just going to wait until tournament training starts to go back. After all, this will be my last weekend being able to live like a glutton for awhile and I don't want to pass that up.
Day 25: Tournament training has started, but I just don't feel good enough to go yet. And with my work schedule changing soon, I won't be able to make most the training classes anyways. May as well wait until my new work schedule changes and then I can go to the morning classes; always kind of preferred them anyways. Also, this gives me another week to get work on my diet - definitely don't want to go to class as sluggish as I've been feeling.
Day 47: Who am I kidding, I'm not going to do the tournament. Some days I wonder if I even want to go back after another long break. Not to mention there's a definite fear now of a real injury; I'm too old for that shit. I sure do miss the people though. Most of them anyways.
Day 61: Two months to the day. I've never been so out of shape. I would probably have a heart attack if I went back. Still can't even say I one hundrent percent want to go back. But I certainly can't keep living like this.
Day 73: I keep having dreams about jiu jitsu. It's annoying. Mainly because in my dreams I keep trying to do techniques I know I should know, but I'm still unable to do them. It's only a matter of time before I dream I can't even tie my belt anymore.
So maybe I shouldn't call this a break, being I haven't made any definite decision to return. However, I hate how out of shape I've become. I could swear at times I can feel my waist line growing and even if that's only in my head, it's a horrible feeling. And if I'm going to do something to counter that, jiu jitsu is far more interesting/exciting for me than any other gym workout I've done, seen, or even heard about.
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